Saturday, December 25, 2010

deuces 2010!

Dear Diary,

It’s been a great 2010 and I’m happy about my accomplishments and achievements thus far…you know I never make new year resolutions and the simple reason for that is that I never follow through and I don’t like to live with the fact that I set a goal and not attain it plus everyday is a learning experience , I set new goals on a daily basis.

Anyways, I set some new levels for myself in the year 2010 and recently just doing a run through of the year, the closest word to how I feel is “GRATEFUL” and that doesn’t even fully describe how I feel. I am thankful and even as this year ends in a BANG I look forward with much excitement to what 2011 holds for me.

Today’s post I’d like to recall some practices that worked well in 2010 and which I will def continue to imbibe in 2011.

Trusting and relying heavily on God-He’s written the script to our lives and without his permission, the plot cannot be changed. Nuff said!

Journal-ling-The perks of writing goes beyond an outlet to vent off and rant..for me the art of writing multitasks as a means to analyze and appraise myself as well as an avenue to deal with situations that may be too hard to face head on and of course as a mode of self expression

Self Confession-I have a routine of confessions that I self profess a couple of times as I go through my day and I cant tell you how much I’ve accomplished as a result. There has been a mental shift and in my mind’s eye, I have been places, I have acquired properties and I’m just waiting on my reality to catch up with my mind.

Visualizing –In 2010, I updated my vision board twice and its been amazing!

Okay that’s all I’ll share for now.

Bourgy Babe

Merry Christmas

Dear Diary,
Its been a while…but a really good while.
Shall I summarize what’s been going on with me or shall I just put it off and take it one step at a time?

Lets see some top highlights of my week…

So the week started off very adventurous…demands from work, personal demands, relationship/friendship demands, christmas demands...just overwhelming it was that I wanted Jan 1st 2011 to just come already.

Tuesday, I had to move apartments and I only made up my mind hours before then…talk about Stressful

On Thursday, after a very looong day at work and a long week I make a quick stop at the mall to shop for a specific trench coat for him. Store after store, coat after coat, no luck..none seemed to be the right one. 2hours later, I’m now tired, famished and disappointed and decide to check one last store before taking a hike and lo and behold some two hefty, Pidgin- english- speaking-guyz walked right by me and hollered “Hey Sexy” and I just walked right by them into Zara without returning glances or even responding to their bellow and this excuse of a human being actually said to his buddy “see dis one no even get yansh and she still dey make shakara”
Without even thinking twice or editing my thoughts I just fired back at him “you dey craze; you dey kolo; somtin dey wori you; your fada! idiot!!!” in the most uncouth manner

*breathe ehi* *breathe*
The look on his face was priceless! He was not just astounded, his face was covered in shame and humiliation.

LOL..LOL..i just burst out laughing…oooh lord, I need to chill but I needed to give it to that man raw and unedited straight from my heart..if I no get yansh, why r you bugging me? *hiss*

So that was me on Thursday…lashing out at everyone that crossed my path.
So rewinding back to Tuesday, I got some movers and they must have bagged a degree in incompetency because they did a great job at been inept. These movers show up 3hours after scheduled time, cant move a box spring and in the course of moving, one of them actually charged at me and swore at me because I told him he could not abandon my bed by the elevator! After much complaining and pretending to call 911, WE (I did most of the lifting) finanlly moved by 9:30pm!

So, its been a tiring week and today at a family Christmas gathering, overfed and with an aching body, I sneak off to do some writing and I feel relieved and grateful for the season.

Have yourself a lovely Merry Christmas.

-Bourgy Babe

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

A Wild Goose Chase

Dear Diary,

I had an amazing weekend!

I went out to a few outings and engagements, spent some time with people I absolutely love and treasure and now its 9:00pm and all I can think of is how I’m advancing into my new week and in thoughtful evaluation of my previous week, I relish the wonderful moments that made me smile and one of them is what I’d like to call a "Canada Goose moment".

My Canada Goose moment was brought about when my friend spent over 3-4 hours hopping from store to store looking to purchase a very expensive brand of winter jacket called Canada Goose.
Taking her 30mins lunch break, she skips into a store looking to purchase a winter jacket..after much carrying and lifting weighty coats, she finally settles on this warm and cozy, one could conveniently take a love walk on a frosty wintry day and count some stars without shivering.

Anywayz, turns out Canada Goose has the potential to keep you feeling warm regardless of any cold since every Tom Dick and Harry has one. So she tries on a pair,…perfect fit! You’d think it was specifically tailored just for her however, on sighting the price tag, the numbers she saw was definetely capable of giving one a cold. She immediately puts a call in order, Ehi, does it makes logical sense to buy a winter jacket for $772?

And my response: Ahn ahn,,how?? Does the jacket have a working heater in it?? ANyways, to cut the long story short, she does not indulge but as soon as she steps back into her office, she realizes what a mistake she’s made to have not bought that jacket.After 2nd and 3rd thoughts, she considers it an investment and decides to pick one up.

On getting back to the same store, oops, its GONE!..NO WAAY!! It must be hiding somewhere..*shuffles racks* in and out, NOPE, ITS CHANGED OWNERSHIP!! This jacket that was supposed to take the heat for all the cold of this winter and the cold of many generations is absolutely BOUGHT! This jacket that she had fantasized about and dreamed of through rose colored glasses has been hijacked by a more decisive and strong willed buyer..who’s probably enjoying it right now.

Now, you know Canada Goose just racked up some cool points now eh, in suspense and feeling like she’d lost out on a great deal, she goes searching, store after store, site after site, same thing every where…out of order..out of stock..none left over anywhere!

Well, she almost passed out from the hype..she needed so badly to put her finger and of course her wallet on one of those hot stuff..Almost like a crack addict experiencing withdrawal she was desperate to pay anything for this brand.

At the end of the night, and after so much laffs and talks, she didn’t get it but she was pacified and sober. As I analyse this situation with my friend, I learn something very vital.

1) “If you like it, then you shoulda put a ring on it“, doesn’t just go for a spouse, it applies to most or all things like your Phone, Canada Goose and anything you attach prime value to. Don’t wait to find out if its any good to anyone else, before deciding you want it.

2) Time and chance happens to all-There’s a set time for everything underneath the earth..a second later could be a second too late. When an opportunity comes knocking, the universe is in alignment at that very second to bring it to pass hence its brought to your radar..don’t try to use the same auction a day later, the odds might be against you.

3) Just cuz it was not good enough for me and I didn’t attach value to it didn’t take away the desire in my friend’s heart. Sometimes, we just have to remember that one size certainly doesn’t fit all and in relying on friends to make decisions for us, it very much depends on who you’re talking to. Just the way you wouldn’t go asking a quack to diagnose your health, don’t go asking one who’s never been in a relationship about your boyfriend’s behaviour..what do you expect to hear?

4) On the converse side, don’t do it cuz everyone is doing it-Take a good and quick look at what you’re doing now, where you are now-job, r/ship,house, school- Are you there because you’re indeed getting something out of it, or are you just buying into A hype?

That’s my Monday Tonic for you.

Have a splendid week ahead and stay in good temperature!
Bourgy Babe

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Make a difference today

Dear DIARY!!

Guess who’s back!!!!

I have soooooo much to tell you, so much happened while I was away and while I may not be able to capture all that has transpired in the space of 3weeks of being AWOL, I will chip em in from time to time.

Ooooh November! you bring so much treats and like that grown kid in a store, ‘ve been scooting between Aisles topping my stash with all sorts of luxuries selecting the best in all eccentricity that I completely abandoned my writing duties. Here I am after much said and done, still filled with the luxuries and pockets of joy saying the Me I was 3weeks ago is certainly not the same person today. I have stretched my mind and I have metamorphosed and I’m just waiting for my reality to catch up with my mind.

In the last three weeks, I’ve gotten promoted thrice, changed houses, succeeded in a few projects and achieved quite a lot some of which too personal to spew here all in my mind and I’m just waiting for my reality to catch up. To tell you the truth, despite it all happening in my mind, I feel as though its all happened and its just as real to me.

Anywayz, one of the promotions already happened in mind and in FACT and yesterday while at work in my new capacity, I said to myself, “Ehi, you are an amazing social worker but we’ll find you another field to utilize your talents”

So as a social worker bulk of my job responsibilities turns out to be emotional .As I provide services, I attempt to encourage, heal and lift but yesterday was in fact daunting. You think after 2years, I should have seen it all and heard it all and I thought so too but no amount of experience could have prepared me for yesterday’s ordeal. Raw pain, unedited and brutal hurt. Just Imagine having a fresh wound with a huge pound of flesh dangling along and been hooked to a truck in a wedged road in Africa and just dragged along until all your genital parts have been ripped and filed flat but the tragic part is you don’t’re left in your own wounds with hot pepper poured on it!

Due to the disturbing and graphic content of it, I’ll stop painting the picture now but this was a quarter of what I heard yesterday, yes, people have some major challenges and after bawling my eyes out (which you should never do before a client) I was glad for the life I had, but I concluded I could not continue in this field for too much longer.

Yes, I’m resigning but I will continue serving in that capacity for my personal projects in the future and hopefully gather some emotional tenacity when that time comes along.

But remember, I said I got promoted thrice in my mind, don’t be worried for me I have two other levels that are not social work and haven’t manifested so I’ll update you when I resume my new jobs.

After seeing two clients yesterday and crying so much I also feel so much rewarded as their hard lives became a little easier to deal with because they met with me.

Yesterday, amongst other obvious lessons, I learned that while sharing tears and getting involved in others pain and hurt is great but what is also great is been able to do something about it and make an impact in their lives.

I’ll like to hear some of your experiences with empathy please share!

Have a fabulous day and Make a difference today!